It's one word that sparks very different emotion. People either love it or despise it. What word am I talking about?
When I started blogging for real and not just about my pregnancy, I did it to share my interests, what my family had for dinner the night before, what we did over the weekend. Then I found out you could actually make money from this blogging gig. A decent income in fact. Very decent actually.
At first I kept things the same and just included a few sponsored posts here and there. Then, over time, it morphed into more sponsored posts than anything else. Then if morphed to only sponsored content. I should not have allowed it to get to that point.
We live and learn.
Over the last few months year I have felt this tugging inside of me. And also outside of me. Let me explain.
I had gotten so "busy" from blogging that I have been missing my girls. Period. Not missing them grow, not missing their events, just missing them. Hanging out with them, playing with them, teaching them how little girls should be. My heart was longing for me to just step back and go play Barbies or push them on the swing, or make mud pies. They were also longing for this. They would come tug on my shirt and ask me to play, or read, or just sit and watch TV. In my "make believe" little world that I had created, I was just too busy for that. And that makes me sad, and mad at the same time.
As you have noticed, I have been absent for the last couple of months. With the move, the holiday's, the extra snow days, I have been spending lots and lots of time with my girls. And cleaning my house, who knew you could get so much done when you weren't "busy"?
I have prioritized my life.
I have changed.
This year is going to be different. I will work on my own terms. Not those of someone else. Go ahead......*GASP*. Yes, there will still be deadlines. I understand that. But, I absolutely refuse to work while my girls are home, I refuse to stay up half night trying to get things done, I refuse to sit at the computer all day long because I don't want to let someone down. It's not that I don't care, I do, you guys know I do. But, this year and for the remaining years to come, my family will come before "work". That's just how it's going to be. I refuse to feel the tugging anymore!
For me, the {C} word is going to be great!